Confessions of an Overdue Mama

I was due on Saturday…if you’re unsure about the math, that was four days ago.  By this time with Sophia (she was a week over), I was emotional, frustrated…I could go on and on.

This time, I’m anxious, but I’ve been okay with waiting.  For one thing, I’ve been spending a lot of time just staring at this cute face: 


Literally…just staring.


C’mon…wouldn’t you?

So, I’m not really that upset about being overdue.  Don’t get me wrong, I’m very much looking forward to meeting baby, but as far as I’m concerned, if she’s comfortable and safe, then I think the longer she “cooks” the better.  What’s a few days in the long run anyway, right? 

I feel pretty big, but yet still kind of small - if you knew me the last time I was pregnant, you understand why.  :) 

I’ve been breaking a few of my own my parenting rules. 
And…I kinda don’t feel bad about it.

Sophia’s been drinking lots of juice, getting dessert after every meal and hearing a lot of “yes.” 

The last two mornings, she has started her day with The Little Einsteins.  Now, don’t’ get the idea that I think that 20 minutes of TV is going to ruin her – especially when it’s the Einsteins…they’re so cute!  I’m more concerned me and about letting myself get used to the crutch it can become. 

She’s also been spending a lot of time with her pacifier…so much time.  At Target, at the mall, at home, in the car.  It’s not going to kill her, but we were doing so well at always leaving it in her room and I guess we’ll just deal with that…some other time.  Plus, I’m not about to take one of her comfort items away before baby comes.  I have a feeling mommy she may need it.

I’m tired.  Like, so, very, tired.  I even tried to make Sophia take an extra nap yesterday.  At 10:30 in the morning.  She made it pretty clear that she wasn’t up for it, but she did sit in her crib with books for 25 minutes while I semi-napped on the bed.  It was one of the best “naps” I’ve ever had.  Ev-er.   (The secret to success?  Um…the pacifier.)

I am getting anxious about a scheduled c-section.  Last time, I had already been through labor and pushing and was so exhausted and out of it that I didn’t really realize what was going on. I think that’s a blessing!  This time I’ll be very aware and awake and probably nervous.  Feel free to pray around 9am on Thursday morning, ‘cuz I’ll probably be super nervous, but let’s not talk about it.  If you wanna talk, let’s talk about how cute she’s going to be. 

I cannot wait to hold this baby.  I want to hold her, grab her tiny fingers and toes and give her endless hugs.  I got a glimpse of tiny baby fingers at Target today and it took everything had to keep myself from grabbing them.  (I didn’t want to scare the mom!)

It’s so strange to know that this is the last day of this pregnancy, but also so wonderful to know it’s finally coming to an end.  Unless I’m awake all night tomorrow, bored and waiting (quite possible), our next post will be an announcement!